I’ve got a problem, a ridiculous but real problem.
I hate speaking on the phone.
Email me, Skype me, WhatsApp me, DM me… do what you like… but call me & I break out into a cold sweat. My phone buzzes away on my desk and I stare at it, willing it to stop, regardless of who it is.
There’s something about the phone ringing that seems so intrusive. It’s not on my terms, it’s forced on me. I can’t choose when to reply or how to do it. I can’t think about what I’m saying, I can’t go back and edit. I hate it.
I’ve always known that it’s something I’m uncomfortable with, but I didn’t realise that it was a thing until my husband pointed it out. Apparently when we first met, we’d speak on the phone & I’d rush to end the call as quickly as possible. The poor thing must have thought that I was completely disinterested in him… maybe that’s how I snagged him… playing it cool without meaning to!
I can’t help but think that as we spend more time using messaging apps, we’ll find fewer people actually speaking. Even now, with collaboration tools such as Slack, I can find myself messaging colleagues sat just a couple of desks away, rather than going over to speak to them. It’s something that I’m actively tackling – no amount of emojis can make up for conveying emotion the way conversation does after all.
Am I strange? Does anyone else hate speaking on the phone? I can’t be the only one… right?